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Originally Posted by DrSkipper
I am also worried that my fantasies are too large to really fulfill. Not just my kinky fantasies, just my expectations of how sex should go. Like, first we get naked, preferably in the shower. But I think if he were to wrap his body around me I'd freak out that his junk is touching me. It's just too scary to think about right now. Let's just stick to fantasies.
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I am worried, too, because you have a whole laundry list of expectations, and every item on your list reduces the range of options for you. So I am afraid that by adding more and more to the list, you might eventually drive the range of options down to zero for yourself. Also, you seem to be quite unusual in that you fantasize about some really unusual things that involve power, paddles, and other such things and yet at the same time thinking about a guy's penis touching you (which is not something unusual and is quite mundane for most people) is too scary. This is just fascinating, of course, but seems to be highly unusual, and the more unusual you are, the harder it is to find a match. Not impossible, but just that - much harder.