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Originally Posted by hamster-bamster
I am worried, too, because you have a whole laundry list of expectations, and every item on your list reduces the range of options for you. So I am afraid that by adding more and more to the list, you might eventually drive the range of options down to zero for yourself. Also, you seem to be quite unusual in that you fantasize about some really unusual things that involve power, paddles, and other such things and yet at the same time thinking about a guy's penis touching you (which is not something unusual and is quite mundane for most people) is too scary. This is just fascinating, of course, but seems to be highly unusual, and the more unusual you are, the harder it is to find a match. Not impossible, but just that - much harder.
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Fantasies are just an outlet, they are just fantasies and it masks the underlying issues. I intend on discussing my fantasies and fetishes with my counselor to uncovering the real issues troubling me and build up self-confidence. She even gave me the number to a sex counselor who is said to be really good. I built up my fantasies to hide from what's really bugging me. Most of my fantasies are just phases and I will likely grow out of them.
Although, I've spent $500 on paraphernalia and I'd like to put them to good use. I think with my certain fantasy it will be fairly easy to get him on board with it as long as he is into submission. Submission is surprisingly common in men, and I think that a submissive guy would love to be subdued by me no matter what uniform I wear. The controversy of the uniform might just make the outfit that much hotter. For now, I have my uniform hidden under my bed. I haven't actually worn the uniform in months.