Hi all,

I am new to this forum and wanted to know if grief of a loved one was really as bad as what people say it is, depending on how close u r to someone. I lost my grandmother just last year, last March and felt sadness of course but wasn't like really close to her.

I have been thinking about death ever since then, like what happens after we die and stuff, and recently wonder how I would cope if I had lost someone closer like a best friend or spouse. Most of what I see on articles dealing with grief is that it is an extremely tough time for someone who loses someone. I feel as though there is no point in being happy if I know that day will come when someone close to me dies and I'll end up being miserable. I am already depressed, have been before grandmother's death (not trying to rant here) but feel more depressed thinking about how to cope with losing someone who is actually close.