Qwerty5678, I also have OCD, and one of my symptoms that used to be worse than it is now is having thoughts that I hate stick in my mind. Like, I'd see people having graphic sex and the more I wanted to stop thinking about that the more I would keep thinking about it. Or I'd read about discrimination, and then my mind would go YOU'RE A _____, and over and over, like I'd fixate on slurs or awful things, even sometimes about minority groups that I'm a part of.

It sounds to me like you're experiencing obsessions and they can be really distressing, I know. But they don't mean you're a bad person, as long as you don't actually believe or act out the discrimination you see in your mind.