I think you're already in the 'wanting to want to' stop drinking phase of the disease. That's progress of a sort; be sure to celebrate it. (But NOT with a drink!!)

Like Roadie, I know how hard it is to battle a dual-diagnosis situation. I'm a recovering alcoholic with 21 1/2 years of sobriety behind me, as well as a fairly serious case of bipolar disorder that I never recognized during all the years I was self-medicating with ETOH.

In a way I'm glad I dealt with these problems a couple of decades apart, as both were total game-changers and it took me a long, long time to accept the fact that I had these diagnoses. Even now I'll look back to a more innocent time, like when I was in high school and there were so many high hopes for me, and wonder what the hell happened to that nice girl......how could she have gone so wrong? And then I realize that all of this was in me from the moment of conception, and that I never really had a chance---yet I've somehow managed to make something worthwhile out of my life, despite my lousy genetics and difficult upbringing.

You can, too. It's never too late until you take your last breath.