The other shoe dropped...should have known it was only a matter of time. A co-worker who I thought was my friend as well is going around the office gossiping about me, twisting things I told her in confidence to put me in a negative light. Rationally, I think she's jealous because she has been there a lot longer than me and her career is dead in the water. I also blew up her theory that my new boss doesn't like/respect women and therefore no woman will ever do well career-wise under him. But, trust is broken - trigger. Yesterday, her and the rest of the group on our floor went out for a birthday luncheon and my team was not invited; we saw them because they went to the same restaurant we picked for a random lunch out of the office. Rejection - trigger. I took the day off today - really want to cancel my therapy session and spend the whole day buried under a mound of blankets in bed where it's safe.

At least this pain is familiar...I was so stupid to believe that anything good could happen in my life without a price. I feel like I'm being punished for even telling anyone about it, which is only what I deserve.