I try to convince myself of this. I succede for short periods of time, it seems, only to become affected by his hateful words again. I cared for him when he was young; washed his clothes, made his meals, paid for meals out and kept him safe and in school and healthy. His thanks is hurtful words while I'm in bereavement from the loss of my wife. I know he just lost his mom and he has Aspergers syndrome and is 18 years old, but this seems so over the top as to be unreal.