(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Wanting)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

It's understandable that you are still feeling so low. After all, it was only last week that you were so sick. I just wish you had at least one person you could count on. It sounds like the friend is one but you said even she is different toward you. I wish only the best for you and I am so glad that you are cutting less. That is a positive sign. Maybe if you ask your friend if she knows of anyone that you can go see, like a T. I think it would help you.
Hope you feel better soon!!
Linda