I feel okay today mood-wise. A little agitated but not like depressed or manic much (not more than usual for me anyway...) Like... I don't feellike I'm about to explode or anything. Or like I'm going to crawl into a ball and die.

So but today is confusion day.

I have the head pressure. It feels like my head is full of air. like a balloon too full and about to explode. I get this sometimes. I feel lonely in this.

I think I know where or what I'm posting. Then I check and no... wrong tope. Or, what I'm saying is just a mush of words. I deteled a few things I said earily because I'm just feeling so confused.... grrr.... frustrating.

I was going pretty okay. I wanted to start to write again. I was just thinking about it this morning.

I found an article, though. I like that it shows my type of bipolar exists and I'm not a weirdo. But, i don't like the author says "intelligance" instead of "cognition." I am very intelligent. It's just my ability to access it doesn't always work okay like today. It's like a door in my brain. My intelligence, memory, focus ect etc is there, on one side. Cognition is the key you use to open the door. See, even right now I still understand that.

Here's the article....
http://www.psycheducation.org/depression/Waves.htm