It's time ladies and gentleman. I am changing who I am to adapt to this adversity. My psychotic break really shook me to the core and took away my socializing ability and confidence. If I could socialize I would be be confident lol. If that works vise versa we will find out haha.

Anyway I am going to fake it till I make it. Eye contact and learning to not care again what people think. I use to not care what people thought of me and I said what I wanted. Now I have to not care what people think and say what I want, but only say less because that's all I can do for now. I am tired of being this desperate man searching for his lost identity. My philosophy is if you lose something, it was old anyways and time to build new. Some core factors can remain in the outline of the personality, but overall the task is to be happy with the man I am today.

I can't change what happened to me. I can only change how I live the rest of my life. Either searching for answers that aren't there or searching for new opportunities with a new me. I've said it before and I'll say it again a million times until I'm in full force. Thank you, thank you very much!