Ugh...with all the work I have done on myself, the one thing I have not fully gain control over is my "switch". I find it ridiculously easy that when someone behaves badly to cut them out of my life without explanation by simply flipping this switch and say ....next. At first I thought it was a healthy thing to do but it's not. It's not allowing me to recognize my feelings/emotions, it simply allows me to shut them off.

With that said, I guess I should set all joking aside and stop making comments such as I have a heart that is 3 sizes too small and one feeling. Or that I am indeed dead inside.

I do on most days try my hardest now to let myself feel, and to work through each detail and feeling in a time frame that works for me. It's hard but someones gotta do it. Blerg.

Feelings, nothing more than feelings.