I am adamantly against blaming anyone for my problems so I have to face myself and it is hard. I have messed up SO SO SO much in my life. I have made SO many wrong choices. I can't even eat right, the most basic thing we should be able to do and I cannot do it.

I am scared of putting all my faults out in front of my therapist. Scared of his rejection and repulsion. I repulse myself. This sucks. Anyone else worry about this?