i think you are right .he does not seem to offer me anything i want deeply. he does not have to. he has denied that he lied to me and he wishes to try again. i don't believe that really but i think he needs me... i just want to stay in a position to him like a friend. i don't want to hurt him and myself. i don't want to loose someone i care about. it seems like ocd i think. i am not sure. i think this is how i try to say ok i loved you and you loved me but we don't seem like we wish same things in a relationship.