I know my docs coworker is covering for him, but im so hesitant to talk to someone i dont know and who doesn't know me. I know that's weird, but it takes a lot for me to open up to people.
And as for the hospital, I am absolutely terrified of ending up in the hospital after my last two inpatient stays. They weren't horrible or anything, I'm just afraid they will keep me for a long time this time if I go in. So that is an absolute last resort. I was at a residential treatment facility this time last year, which i actually miss, and I doubt my family wants to see me miss the holidays yet again for my messed up reasons.
I think I'm going to try to ride it out, but if it gets too bad, ill definitely do what you suggested. Thanks!
Hope you have a nice holiday too!