I think you are too complicated. If you trust your higher power and have enough self esteem you would be able date. If you really dated and really tried to find someone wonderful, it would be worth all of the backache. You could have the stamina to be successful but you don't want to have it because you moan and groan and act like it is a bad thing to have a fantastic person in your life. YOu act like the hunt is not worth it.

I hate to critizie but so many people today are too lazy to hunt for a compatable person. Instead they function by tradition. They tell themself that they are "old " now and that it is just too late. Well you will live out the decisions you have made. All of us can get a blessing if our heart is in the right place, if we have integrety and are believers in good outcomes. These are the things I have. I deserve a prosperous life. I don't have to settle for less than that.

Anything that is good takes prayer and usually a bit of work.
It is never too late