I'm sorry that you aren't recognizing any of the skills that you have right now. Maybe you should aim for lower, more recognizable tasks. If you keep focusing on broad, wide dreams, there isn't much that you're going to reward yourself for.

Try writing down daily tasks that you can actually achieve. Like: spend 1 hour writing a story; go for a work-out; do laundry (or some other cleaning task); do something fun ~ to reward yourself for following the tasks listed!

The more often you do it, the better you'll feel about your abilities & the less often you'll spend kicking yourself for whatever. {We can always find something to kick ourselves about! The challenge is to create things to pat yourself on the back for.}

Hope that this helps you...