Hi dear Kala ~ It sounds like you're not the only one that has issues with your father. It sounds like the whole family does. But you in particular have serious issues with him due to the abuse and that's something that you're going to have to deal with. And in order to do that, you're going to need the help of a therapist. Ask your doctor to refer you to a good therapist, hon -- he will know who would be a good one for you. Going thru therapy is great, and helps you to deal with issues such as abuse. Now I'm not going to tell you that it isn't sometimes painful, because we have to go back and remember the past abusive episodes, but that is HELPFUL in getting rid of the past. So please, get the referral and get into therapy. It's the ONLY way to heal.

I wish you the very best Kala. Please let us know how things go, okay? God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee