do you think though that it would become awkward? i think i might feel a little embarrassed that i told him and maybe he doesnt even feel the same way about me. and maybe its not a good idea to tell him now, since he has a gf. maybe i should wait until he doesnt have a gf anymore if that ever happens, to tell him?

do you think its too explicit to tell someone that you want to have sex with them? and that i want to do with this and other things with him before he dies. i dont know what he is going to think of me, i dont want him to think that im slutty or something. i think that now he kind of respects me, but then again he is respectful to everyone. but im afraid that if i tell him this he will think of me differently and not in a good way.

and i dont know if i would even email him or try to call him to tell him something like that, im not really that close to him, we dont usually talk on the phone so itd be strange to suddenly call him and tell him this. and i think that id get nervous and itd just sound really awkward and embarrassing.