Ohhhhh that has been me for sure. I've been taught and trained to be "desensitized" and it's always been my MO until it finally erupts behind closed doors. I'm trying to learn not to shut down but then I get so overwhelmed with grief and sadness because I kept it in too long...then I'm reminded why I have shut down

I'm not sure if it gets better day by day?

But I feel your pain