dont worry so much the realme, i am sorry my post has made you feel like this, dont hold out in going to the doc if you need to,

i live in a mental health bed and blanket hostel, it is full of people with a lot of problems, we just got rid of a man who thought that fire extingishers were evil, the doc came to see him but because he was on a solid meds regime he could not section him, so i guess my point is go to the docs, get the meds and make yourself well