I described it once has having multiple radios on, watching tv, trying to read a book and a magazine all at the same time. But with different layers - some thoughts are on top, some are more background, and they go fast. Sometimes so fast that when I would try to have a conversation I wouldn't make sense because I was trying to talk as fast as my thoughts and the topics would change.

Then I have what I call more "crowded thinking" where there are too many thoughts in my head and I can't seem to get them out and process them. It's like thoughts get bottlenecked in my head and I can't let go of them so I keep looping back. Normally I'll talk things out or pace around my apartment and that will help. When Mom visited I couldn't and I was having some issues with turning 40 and also there was some stuff I saw on tv. Normally if the thoughts get too much, I'll pace and think (and sometimes talk outloud) about why turning 40 bothers me, what I'm going to say at my next therapy appointment, why I thought the episode of tv I watched was good or bad.

It kind of acts as a release valve.

Sometimes when I'm trying to write a post or comment online I have to get up and walk around and think through/talk through what I want to say.

I've never told a therapist that. I probably should.