First of all I will tell you all that it still feels weird to get compassion with the death of an animal, I saw and experiemced way too much. So I am really letting it soak in, thank you.

Secondly is a thought I had about animals being frightened when they are brought to the vet for euthanasia. We used to have a nice farm vet that would do it for me here if I asked but he is gone. And of course to have a farm vet you need farm animals and all we have now are the goats. I found myself wishing that it were easier for me to have access to the chemicals to humanely euthanize animals who are suffering. I do not anticipate anything coming up, that thought scares me to death but if it does I want to be able to handle it at home in a loving hospice kinda way. I even dreamed I was giving an animal oral liguid morphine as they were dying. I guess it's on my mind.

I kept expecting kitty to be found gone but she hung on so much. It was a conversation with a friend of mine who is an absolute nut about her kitties that made me see what had to be done. I saw when her cat had to go but she could not and vice-versa.

Why do parrots and turtles live so long and our pets only a small fraction of our lives?

Well, I have seven puppies to see to and find the very best homes for so I will move onto life. They are so beautiful and if someone wants to help me post them I have pics, thanks.