My T today was very understanding. Even gave me her email address to rather email her and not feel alone, than fall back on "needing" Klonopin. It means a lot to me. She asked if I wanted a hug and I so wanted to say yes, but then told her that I'd burst into tears. I don't know what I should have done. These are both new to me.

This BP roller coaster is the pits. I've just gone to bed now to read. I do feel lonely and wish someone could hold me. Yes, my boyfriend will hold me, but I just have so many pent up emotions. I don't know how to handle it.

You guys have been amazing...