Your not a crazy nutcase. I have so many little quarks that it's ridiculous. I have had to find ways around them. I'm lucky to have my husband who's quarks are different. If you don't mind me asking what do you rely on your family for, maybe we can offer suggestions for more independents?

As far as the meds, mushy brains and future damage. Would you be able to see a future if you were unmedicated? Why did you choose medication? Are you in therapy? Why do you feel backed in a corner? Do you like your pdoc enough that your willing to discuss this with him/her? What did you like doing as a kid?

I know I question meds all the time and the PC boards, med containers, alarms, being handed meds & drink, my pdoc, my sig. and therapy help me stay compliant. I swear every three weeks me and T have the “why do I need meds” talk.