Today I saw a pdoc for the first time. The appointments are made same day, and there was almost no time between making it and going.

I have developed an awful habit of expecting the worse possible outcome, and its a little debilitating... so I wasn't especially looking forward to this. I have been having a bit of a crisis over my inability for how to raise the issue of SUI in therapy, and some OMG, you're only allowing for how many sessions of therapy!!?

It was probably a good thing that the appointment happened so quickly, because there was really no time to talk myself out of sharing. Clearly there are differences from speaking with a therapist, but similarities too.

I've been concerned with how to raise the SUI issue for a long time now, basically feeling panic that if I do raise it, I'll somehow end up in involuntary commitment. She took it in her stride and it didn't seem like a concern for her, but more a "its probably very natural for you to feel that overwhelmed and wanting a way out." approach.

The best thing of all was that she didn't care that I did explain things very technically. There's none of the equivocation about what you might have, or might not (which an MSW can't directly do)... and some certainty is a comforting thing. The thing I've suspected that I have for so long, ADHD/PI did get confirmed, and she prescribed Vyvanse.

Not only that but she inquired about insurance, and set me up with someone to apply for prescription assistance (and seemingly free medication? which I'm a little shocked by)

She also walked me to someone else to speak with someone about some educational and vocational support. She just really understood how this condition could be a problem, and it seems, amidst the, slightly overwhelming feeling of the day, that the problem here might be getting completely surrounded.

Therapy... which is way too far away, still.. second week of July (damn you, public holidays!) is somehow easier, because I'm a little more hopeful. I said elsewhere that hope is the currency of therapy, and I think its truer now.

Anyway... just wanted to share

Edit: Oh, and unlike my expectation of a male pdoc, because most I've heard of, are male, this one was female, young and in an almost-too-short dress.