I don’t also fit the stereotype of what ppl with eating disorder should look like. I’m 5’6 and 160-165lbs. I had started believing that my disorder was because I wanted to lose weight but with many years and early counseling I now understand that it was my way of handling my stress and when I do lose weight it was a bonus but it wasn’t a priority. I’ve been struggling with this disorder since I was 15 and I’m 24 now. I had also started out with 6 times a day everyday but as time passed I’ve tried my best not to rely on it to deal with my stress.Yes this disorder can be emotionally and physically draining but what I found that with this disorder, it was a instant physical gratification when my emotional circumstances is so overwhelming. That is why I have such a hard time walking away from the disorder. Have you consider about getting counseling to help understand this disorder? Try not to let the stereotypes take a toll on you because it is obvious that these ppl just doesn’t understand the disorder.