I have had a rough couple days. Been ruminating a lot about old t and struggling with the idea of getting close to new t. I feel like I am still in denial and still angry about being terminating. I am also stressed out because I have my second to last session with old t on saturday. I emailed new t with my feelings (we are now on a once a week basis), just to update her. She usually doesn't reply to emails, so I don't know what I wanted out of that email. Just to talk to someone I guess. She replied though, asking if I wanted to have a phone call to talk about this all. I was surprised and found myself balking at the idea. I quickly replied that i was ok and that i didn't want to have a phone call. I don't understand this relationship. I want to talk to someone but when t offers, I don't want to talk anymore. Anyone have this? It's like I am afraid of having any kind of contact that would promote any sort of relationship. How is therapy going to work if I am stuck in this mindset? Can anyone relate to this?