Welcome Sup_sarah. You are not alone and I know how scary and embarrassing this can be. You sound young and I assume you are still under your parents' medical plans/ involvement? If so, I can understand why it makes it even harder. I have been married a few years now and am so thankful that I can get the treatment I need without my parents knowing anything. I know they wouldn't understand which wouldn't be helpful to me. DO you know if therapy or mental health appointments are covered by your insurance? Could you make an excuse to why you want to talk to a professional? Say stress with school or something... whatever you think would get you the help without your parents being more involved than you are comfortable with. I think talking to a professional will help out a lot. I am still waiting for my psych evaluation and therefore treatment but I already feel better knowing that I am not crazy and that I will be better soon. My councellor described it as this... the more you keep it to yourself, the worse it will get. Not that you have to tell the world, but tell someone you can trust. I hope this helps and you can talk to me anytime.