You should not be ashamed that your family helps so much. We have a cousin that lives with us solely to help with the house and our son. If you like teaching you may want to look into doing something at the library, community center 1x-2.5x a month or become a drop in tutor for the adult learning center. I'd seriously look at your meds since your unstable and feeling drugged. Maybe IOP during the day could help you stabling out and learn who you want to be.