You are not alone. I had this problem when I was not on meds. I was very confused and foggy quite a bit. In fact, feeling that way is what finally got me to the pDoc. I scared myself and began to really fear I'd lose my job for messing up so much and not being able to get things completed. And, God, my house was a huge disaster. I could never put it together enough to clean anything. Honestly, this "phase" is the most difficult to me. It is confusing in itself to be so confused. I read the article you posted and it makes sense to me. In describing a recent switch from what I was perceiving as normal to rapid downward decline she actually called it "dysphoric mania". And I completely relate to the description of wanting to get up and do what I need to do, but not physically being able to do it. And not in a depressive way. More like I just cannot make my body move. For example, I was in the hospital (off meds but for something else) recently and all alone. I wanted my phone which was across the room. It took me at least 15 minutes to be able to get up and get it - to be able to talk to my body enough so that I could coordinate the motivation with the movement. And I wasn't sick in a way that prevents movement at all. I don't know it's awful. I'm glad you feel better now.

I feel you on the insurance. I was self-employed last year and had to pay out-of-pocket for all of my son's ADHD treatment. It was over $1,000 a month. But no one would/could help (medicaid, nonprofits, etc) because of my income. In the meantime, he was struggling a ton in school and emotionally and I was just trying to survive with no meds. We were a serious mess at home.

The good news is that meds for me have made this much, much better. Maybe that will give you some hope.

Hang in there & Big hugs!!!