My psychiatrist doesn't believe (and i don't wanna go think about it again) that DID exists, when i decided to tell him about my probably having it. He said DID doesn't exist, he's been in the profession for 40 years (that's true) and he hasn't seen anyone with it, he says all I say are things i créate in my head and i believe them. i think he has stuck me with a certain label and he's sticking into it. i wanna get better, and get to see another better psychiatrist. maybe he's too biologist in his approach. but i wanna, i need to tell my two parents about my change. an dabout the DID. but i don't. i've never been able to tell people my psychological ailments, no matter how much i tried. when i was 14 i tried, but i stopped doing, people would not understand and things were too crude. too horrible for everyone including me.

He was like "yeah, yeah, but you don't have it, you don't show the symptoms", and he was like i'm not gonna tell you the symptoms. i'm not saying I have did just because I say it, but I'm tired of feeling bad, I'm really tired, and I'm looking for help, that's everything. It sounds crazy when I tell people, and I realice, but something's wrong with my mind and I need your help on this.

I do know I have some dissociative disorder and I need someone to listen to me, to have a talk with me. He says I'm just very anxious and sensitive, and yeah, that's true, but i really have so many states... i know this is true. he sounds so secure of himself, and, what if he hasn't have been able to detect he had DID patients? Hum. Maybe he's treating me this way just only he thinks I'm obsessive and doesn't want me to obsess about things.