You'll never know how good you feel until you're completely honest with your therapist. It's liberating to just lay it all out there for a disinterested third party to tell you whether or not what you think you're thinking is the strangest thing on the planet or is based on the events of your life and normal because of what you've been through. For me it was an eye opener. I don't think I've hid my disease since that time. I'm honest about it. Mostly because I so deeply want to remove the stigma attached to people like me, the BiPolars, the Paranoids, the Depressed.

After 27 years at least now people can gather and talk about it - admit it to each other in places like this. Before that time you were simply one that should be tossed in a ditch and forgotten about. After all, you were broken.

But, I do agree with the heavy bag idea above. WITH HELMET - lol. I think you'd be able to pound the bejeebers out of your daily troubles without too much hurting. Then, go to therapy and lay out what's going on for you. It could be a really good way for you to understand and overcome. Understand your pain and work it out in a healthy way. One that could last a lifetime if you're so inclined, too.