It's ok to be terrified. I'm terrified of it too. For allll the same reasons are except you worry about your husband (I'm single) and the worry about being a criminal.

FYI - I'm so far from being a criminal that it's hilarious. The only infraction I ever make is that I'll smoke weed sometimes. But other than that, and you won't even get me to litter or go past a sign that says "don't pass" even if I know it'll be ok.

It's better to have the emotions, even if they ARE all over the place and going haywire right now. I've went through times like that too when I was starting to learn how to handle myself. It's cause when we block everything out and we're numb, it means that we clearly don't have the slightest clue how to process any of our emotions. Once we let the flood out.. although it's crazy... it allows you to actuall work on learning how to handle them and how to cope with them. And then as you do that you'll find that it will become progressively more calm and controlled. And then you'll also get to experience the good emotions more often!