This depression is taking its toll. I can't take much more of it. This pain I just can't take. Saw my tdoc today and that didn't really help, also talked with my pdoc and she upped my dosage on my AP but not my AD.

I'm supposed to call my pdoc back on Monday if I don't feel better but I don't know if I can take 5 more days of this. I a having such strong urges to OD on pills, it seems like the only solution to get away from all this pain. Just fall asleep and never wake up.

Funny thing about this is that I don't see over dosing as suicide I just see it as a solution, I know it sounds weird but right now it makes sense to me.

I don't know what to do, I need help.

John