another thing that i am afraid of, just in general is that if i am the one to confess my feelings to a guy first, i am afraid that he will get tired of me. its like then i am the one chasing him, but i want it to be the other way around like that he chases me. but maybe that will never happen because im not that girl that every guy is chasing, i wish i were one of those girls that are chased by guys in their life.