It was a psych NP....after an hour long consultation. I multiple presenting issues but she honed in on this one.

She does know about my insurance issue and as we change meds she has been working with that to try the cheaper stuff first...but I'm up to seroquel as needed and it's pretty expensive. I guess if it gets more necessary, I'll look into a program. However, I do technically have high deductible insurance and my husband and I both have well paying jobs so it may be tough to qualify.

I plan to talk to my therapist about it tomorrow. This has been brewing for about 3 weeks. We have talked about it a little bit...she does not think I am bipolar in the sense that I don't have all the extreme mania and destructive behaviors, but this is more bipolar II with hypomania, and I have been historically very secretive with her has well; only recently (after a year) am I fully opening up to her. It makes sense that people don't believe it. That's another thing that scares me and another reason why I'm so confused.