My general golden rule online is to never pay for porn, because there are so many videos out there that there is nothing special worth paying to see, and most of it is a scam.

However, I have been using the site fetlife for over a year now and on the site they post the most popular BDSM photos and videos. The videos, however, are for members only. At first, I thought, there is no way I am paying for porn. But for the past six months I've been thinking it over. This is BDSM porn made by mostly amateurs who are also members of the site, and the videos look so intense and amazing, and these videos are hard to find on other sites. I always get really bummed out when I see a video that looks good and has a bunch of positive comments on it and I can't watch it. The site is asking for $5 a month, or $30 for 6 months and it will also grant me a bunch of other features for using the site, and fetlife is a legit site so it won't rip me off. I know I'll be using the site for a long time.

Ultimately, the problem is that I feel dirty about paying for porn, even if it's a legit site and costs very little, but I want to watch BDSM videos on this site. It feels strange to ask about buying porn, but I'm pretty conflicted and I've never paid for porn before.