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whoswho · Jun 26, 2013 at 11:49 PM

Today was kind of an off day. I ate more than what I would have wanted, but I also refrained from binging and purging when I had the chance. But then I had that one glimpse of myself in the mirror as I stepped out of the shower and at that moment I had the whole "realization" that I've had a thousand times before: I'm fat, I'm ugly, I'm disgusting, I'm an abomination. I know I'm working on it, and I'm making progress (and have made some significant progress) but am nowhere near my (HEALTHY) goal, and sometimes... it really is difficult to look at myself. Sometimes, I'm tired of putting my life on hold until that moment I reach my "goal weight." I know that's an unhealthy strategy, and something I still need to work on.

Maybe, I just need to avoid mirrors for a while.