why?

The question you and the therapist would want to answer is "WHY?".

Well, you can start exploring the answer before initiating therapy - that certainly would not hurt.

So - why?

What is the gratification?

Or, what is the fear - why do you push them away?

Is it power? Do you enjoy that you have power to play games with the guys - because, obviously, there should be some attraction to you on the part of the guys for them to feel hurt, and you are exploiting the attraction. So it is that? There are more peaceful ways to deal with male interest.