You are also abusing the word "abuse".

You are playing some sort of games, but you are not abusing the guys you meet - especially since you do not live with anybody. It is not like you are choking them, taking away their power to make independent decisions, etc. You are just playing games and they decide for themselves how much they want to be involved and to what extent they are willing to tolerate your games. It appears that they have been willing to tolerate your games to some extent but not overwhelmingly so.

In general, the OP makes a weirdest impression... basically, you appear to be reveling in your own "badness". Try other approaches to life just as an experiment - try to be nice for a change and see what comes out of it. And you do not need a therapist to try that. Just try for yourself and see - maybe you would like it. You never know.