This is what I feel like saying in social situations "I know what you said, I just don't know what you mean" I have no idea how to interact with people, so I just copy who ever I'm with. Is there a real me? I don't think so and that my friends is paranoia. I think people can tell I'm not "real". This gives me a great deal of anxiety, so I avoid meeting the same people more than once. If I want to maintain a "friendship" I have to recount our conversations over and over to make sure I act the same way each time. It is terrifying and overwhelming. Mostly I can't do it. I don't have any friends. Maybe with medication, but it's a struggle.

Pond.