Meaningoflife,

My marriage of 18 years is the worst of both worlds. My bipolar illness got worse in 2004 and I could no longer work full time, then couldn't work part time, then went on government disability in May, 2011. My wife has been verbally/emotionally abusive since I first met her. I've come to understand it didn't start with me; she has serious emotional problems, probably Borderline Personality Disorder, as well being alcoholic, from a family of alcoholics who also have mood problems. No sex in three years and my libido has disappeared. I feel like you; I'm too much to deal with and she's too much to deal with and together, it's bad and I just want out so I can live by myself. I'm fine with that and I can handle my moods and health issues much better on my own.

In therapy and looking for a lawyer but I will need alimony from her because I can't work, unless I get very stable and handle stress better than I do, which is a faint hope. Stay positive and start therapy.