Such strong urges to cut last night.... fought them off with the help of talking with a friend. This morning, anger has turned into numb or maybe I am just dissociating from the pain/anger I had yesterday..
Weird part. I used to cut to get the anger/pain to flow out of me. Today, I want to SI in order to try to bring myself out of the numbness.
Trying.. successfully so far... to not cut, as it is short sleeve weather. But have been either punching my thighs or hitting my arm with something hard, or banging my arm say a bench for the pain..I don't want to feel the anger/hurt that I know is still in my brain... but I am having hard time being disconnected.
Did this make any sense to anyone? Ever try si to fight the numbness?