thanks guys, with 3 young kids it is hard for me to get away for things like therapy. My therapy is dancing which I force myself.to do once a week when I'm feeling low. I do it more when I'm feeling better.

My husband and I have a pretty good connection overall. There are times that we lose it which a date night out without the kids easily fixes. He just doesn't like talking about feelings. I think part of him was relieved when I started dumping on my friend more and him less. I go to him when he felt up to it and went to my friend all.of the time.

I'll have to look into that Google drive....

Thanks also for the food advice. I have found tea and Carnation Instant Breakfast drinks with a ranitidine cheer to be a good way to keep myself going.I am now managing the occasional meal