Sorry about you losing your friend. I know it must really hurt since you were so close to him. I think you are right about not contacting him. I think that would just make things worse. Force yourself to go dancing more often. The exercise will do good thinks for your mood and get you thinking about other things. I know this will be tough but keep posting. Hopefully you will be able to share on here rather than lean on your old friend. Best wishes to you.