(((haier)))

I am sorry that you're in such pain.

I can relate to the pain involved in ending a long-time, fully invested relationship. There are reminders of the love everywhere around you. Where you live, the furniture, clothes, all sorts of momentos surround us. It has taken me several years to be able to look at certain things without bringing up memories and difficult emotions inside of me. Of course, our children are never-ending reminders to me as well.

It does become easier as time passes. I can assure you of that. It takes time. It takes moving on yourself eventually, emotionally. I would recommend that you see a counselor to help you work through these thoughts and emotions that you're struggling with inside. You do need to achieve some sense of closure ~ whether or not you choose to forgive him. That takes time & support.