I am kind of similar because I have fallen for 3 teachers who were males, 1 female therapist, and 1 friend that I consider to be a mother figure. When I say fallen, it is confusing though. I was never consumed with sexual fantasies about them, yet I thought about them all the time and in somewhat romantic ways. Though I consider myself to be straight and not even bisexual, I do not hesitate to say that if either my female therapist or friend tried to kiss me, I would not stop it. And I have imagined sexual things with my T. I think it is definitely about wanting to bond with her on every level. To feel that passion for each other. It's more about feeling unconditional, complete love from a parental figure and less about same-sex desires. This is just me at least! It is completely understandable that you are confused and I hope you can sort it out in time.