hi.........................
I just recently have confronted all the losses I've had in my life. My current T and one I'm considering changing to both picked up on this. I thought maybe writing this may be of help to me and, possibly, someone else.
My first loss was my childhood. It was taken away at birth by a birth defect requiring surgeries that started at four hours old. I've had 17 in my short 30 years of life. Also, it was taken away by an uncle of mine and others who did unspeakable things to me.
I lost my grandparents while still in elementary school and a mentor/friend in junior high. I lost my two best childhood friends to moves and school changes.
Back in 08 my dad died of a sudden heart attack. I still haven't grieved his loss. Then, due to my depression, I lost my faithful companion of six years, my service dog, Jaba. I've lost acquaintances to suicide. I've had to let go of numerous therapists over the years. Most of whom eventually told me they couldn't help me anymore.
and, finally, I'm losing the friends in my Dad's company which is shutting it's doors after 20 years. I feel like the people there are family. They had a closing down party today but I just couldn't bring myself to face everyone, even though it may be for the last time.
If you're still reading, thank you. I should have written this years ago.
Toes