well i havent been on here for a while due to my bipolar. well update. my intestinal problems were caused by the lithium so they put me on depakote and i had a reaction to it. then they put me on geodon and i had another reaction. well now im on zyprexa.

well my moods have been up and down. i was in the er due to a SI wound to the wrist. and been in and out of the ER all month due to meds and depression.

I feel like this disorder is winning. I try to be happy and it just doesnt work. Im so messed up that my friendships have been suffering. I tell my docs about this and they dont act too worried. What am i suppost to do? How can i defeat this monster inside me and gain control over my self?