Hi There,
I'm hoping someone may be able to offer me some advice or opinion on my current predicament.
I'm 31 years old been with my partner for nearly 12 years, we have our own house together and up until a few years ago lived a happy normal life. I don't know why but things started to change and we stopped communicating with each other, being physical with one another and all the other things that couples should do, like going out together, spending time, even silly things like the grocery shopping.
Just over a year a go i met a man at work whom i was instantly attracted to, we get on really well and have all the same interests and hobbies. We were out on a work night and things just started from there. For the past 10 months i've been having a relationship with this other man, and we fell in love with one another.
obviously my partner of 12 years has noticed a decline in our relationship and we recently had a fight about it and i moved out of our home. We've been talking to one another and have started to get on really well again like we used to years ago.
I now am so confused as to what to do, I find myself in the awful position of having two men in love with me and wanting to be with me, but I don't know which way to go. I feel so lost and alone as I can't really speak to anyone about this, the only person I can talk to is the other man, who knows all about my long term partner and the confusion and pain I'm going through.
I love both of them dearly and really don't want all the upset, and pain that I'm causing two people who really don't deserve it. if I go back home I don't know if things will improve and we can get back what we once had, also I'll have to see the other man at work every day knowing i've broken his heart and lost my best friend.
But if I go with the other man, I lose my first love, my home and my history as such.
I'm trying to have a few days away without contacting either of them to give myself some time to really think what i want. But i'm finding it so hard to decide as i don't want to compare them against each other. I'm finding it so difficult as I don't want anyone to be hurt and upset, I know someone will be but i hate myself for being the cause of it all.
Thank you for reading.